for the record, everyone is beautiful, everybody may not see it, but eventually they will find one person who makes them feel that way, it may be a friend or a significant other, but they will find them. its fate. like cyrus said, little things in fate can be changed but its the big things that will always be there. people go through life with false beliefs, one of my friends said they need a boyfriend to feel better about their self. you so dont need a boy-friend, but a friend. a relationship between a friend and a relationship between a b/f or g/f is the same except for the feeling of love. that in itself is an unexplainable feeling that is uncontrolable and inconceiveable to anyone whos is inlove or to anyone who has loved. and its unlike any emotion to the point of you can either love, or be loved. in this world of terrisom and hate, love is the thing that keeps us together.

ever had a day where it feels like...why did i wake up? or a day where you think you woul dof been better off in a heaping pit of poo? well today was so that day. i found wher eyou find occurences where you see soemone who looks liek a person you havent seen in a while and you just keep seeing people that look like them then you will eventually see that person. i saw my mom today. that was a horrible thing. now i dont want to o back to school and have 5 people running to me and condemning me to hell because i said my mom is a horrible thing. but you have to know the story behind the things my mom has done to me. i am going to write it all for the world to see here, but trust me if you were in my shoes you would feel the same way. what i am inevitably getting at is, never ever take your parents for granted. they are the wisest link you have to the real world before it hits you. your parents are not as bad as they seem. unless they have kicked you out of your house, thrown away all your personal posesions, and sued you for insubordination then you have no room to talk. your parents are wonderful. all you have to do is realise it.

im sure if your like me you have asked yourself the question why am i here. well, my answer my not be the same as yours but my answer is a story and has tow answers. about 2 years ago after a band concert a group of friends and myself went to the infamous Java Joes. while there the great Ed Roncho told his great elephant sneezing joke. im sure you all heard it. anyway. i watched as 15 people all quieted just to hear ed. and throughout that night whenever ed started to talk everyone was quiet. that amazed me. i saw ho wmuch everyone loved and respected this man. and it was amazing. i then decided to see why he was so amazing. over the next 3-4 months i figured it out. he always put his friends about anyone else. and never denied anyone a friendship based on apppearence. he cared and listend to people. he strived to help them to the best of his ability. i then decided that i like that, and that i want to do that too. that was when i changed my ways. i then learned to be more compationate to peoples peopblems. i would drop anything and everything in an instant just to make sure they were ok. an di still am that way now. well as i listened more carefully to people i started realising the number of friends i had has now doubled. and to top it off i have the best girlfriend in the world. well just recently i asked myself why am i here. well i replied to that easily. i am here to help my friends. no matter how petty thier problem is, no matter how dumb they may think they are i will help them and honestly give then an opinion and will keep taht between me and them. now your sitting there and thinking...i thought he said he answered it two ways..well i said earlier that love is a thing that is imaginable to explain and is eithe rthe best or worst feeling you can ever feel. well i also answered that question by saying, i am here to love. to love my freidns to the best of my ability, and to make sure they know soemone is there to love them. and im sorry, unless you know the feeling you may think im done, but love is soemthing that binds me to my goals. my love to do soemthing is what drives me each day to be set with an anchored mind and a steady thought. most of all if you find a person you can love, seriously love. then i congradulate you, because you are the most happiest man in the world. and im glad theres at least two of us because i ahv efound my person, and let me assure you all. it is a feeling unlike anyother and impossible to explain.